diaphanous

I'm just kind of sad

Just kinda want to cry

disappear

but i can't, i fucking can't

why can't I just go.

i'm so sad 

    all the time

                                        there are so many people and so many decisions and so many things going on and i wish i wish i wish i wish things were different but they're not

this toxicity is growing in me and i can't let it out

and i have to stop talking

I'll just whisper it all to my notebook
the only thing i can't fuck up

Cause everyone else is too diaphanous

And i'm tired of bird metaphors.