For theRunner.

“Where should I go?" asked Alice. 
-"That depends on where you want to end up." 

So. I had written you a letter.a long time  while ago. It was two am and I was about to leave to the airport when i finished it in Anchorage. 
And it saie everything I wanted to say to you. 
But I don't really remember.
And there was some other stuff with it too. 
So I gave it to trish to give to you, but it got lost. And I kept hoping that she would get it to you before you left but she didn't and for some reason that broke my heart. Because i didn't want you to think that I left without leaving you a part of me. Because I was worried, I guess, that you'd think I don't love you as much as some. [Selfish Thoughts.]
And I know I've written you things before. But these were my last words for my time in Alaska...and I wanted you to have them.
So I don't know. Maybe she'll find it and maybe I'll be able to give it to you someday.
But if she doesn't, it doesn't matter. Because whatever was written on those pages is in my headbodysoul and whenever you want I can tell you, you know, how amazing you are.
So I'm just going to write you this blog post and hope that that's okay for now. And I'm kind of crying because I miss you alot
but I love you and I hope you're happy and I hope you will be able to find happiness everywhere you go and find beauty in everything you touch.
Because, you, Clemmy.
I love you.

"In a wonderland they lie, Dreaming as the days go by, Dreaming as the summers die;

Ever drifting down the stream- Lingering in the golden gleam- Life, what is it, but a dream."